We drove by the farm house over the weekend.
(I feel like this song needs to be playing.)
It was cold, but we got out of the car. The girls ran around on the property. Their delighted squeals just about made my heart burst. If you follow me on Instagram, you may have seen the video I posted to my stories. I missed the best part, but I still captured some of their joy. You can watch it in the “farm house” highlight if you’re interested. That highlight also includes getting to walk around the exterior of the house with me.
I spoke to the owner’s wife again last week. I told her that I wanted to make sure she knew that we were still interested. She said “Oh, it’s YOURS as soon as we finish the work.” So, there’s your update. Which, really is the same as before. I was told that we could rent it once the work was done and we told our families that. The farmer’s goal was to have the work done by Spring.
I have this fear that something will make it all fall apart. I’m afraid they will find something major wrong that will make the dream come crashing down. I hate that. Our lives look nothing at all like what we ever thought they would be, so when something good is on the horizon I can’t ever fully believe it. What a crummy way to look at life. I’ve got to stop waiting for the other shoe to drop…
This place is like magic. As soon as I step out of the car, all of my fears wash away. My mind becomes clear. All of the chaos dies down.
Serene.
Life feels loud and overwhelming so often. My kids have been through so much. They’ve had their lives uprooted so many times, and they don’t fully understand it. They’ve lost their Papa that they loved dearly. They also know that my grandparents, whom they have come to know and love, are very sick and won’t make it much longer. So, when we drove up to the farm house the first time and they declared “I WANT TO LIVE HERE” without having a clue that it was a possibility..
To hear their joy.. you guys..
I can’t wait to show them the inside. We thought about calling up the owner to see if we could go in, but decided that we needed to get home to make dinner since it was getting late. I did take some pictures through the doors.
This isn’t really an update since nothing has changed. The news is still the same. The anticipation keeps building. Sneak peaks here and there.
We’ve been praying for wisdom and clarity, and God grants it. He is faithful.
