I feel like all I do on here is share quotes and talk about my health or my kids’ health or my family’s health. These are all of the things consuming my life. They are front and center every day here. We are constantly worrying about “diet” and what is safe and healthy to eat. What is going to keep someone from getting sick.. not not just a sniffly cold.. but potentially lead to life threatening reactions. We are still waiting on the phone to ring with an allergist appointment. We are still waiting for the endocrinologist to call with results so that I can move on to the next step. COME ON PHONE!! RING!!!!!!
I can’t say that I am thankful yet. I really can’t. IN all things give thanks.. (1 Thess. 5:18) I can’t say that I am thankful FOR what is happening. It is like trying to walk through water with the current against you. We are trudging along figuring out how to live with what we have been dealt. Unfortunately, my diseases and Harper’s food allergy will never “pass”. Harper may outgrow her food allergies, and I PRAY that she does. My diseases are for life. We can’t ever really get to a point where we can say that it is behind us. We can get to a point where we can manage it all. WE WILL get to a point where we feel “normal” again. I believe that.
I know that God has a plan in all of this. I am praying that I will be able to help someone who starts down a similar journey. I pray that God gives me the strength to survive this (NO, it’s not going to kill me.. but I feel like it will). I pray that I find my true strength and use all of this for HIS glory.
I pray that I can find myself again. I feel like Ashley has gotten lost somewhere along the way, and I want her to come back. She is going to look different. She is going to be different. But, she will be strong.
